I Don't Know Who I'd Be...

These last few years have been difficult. It wasn’t all bad, but there have been many trials. One of the significant constants in my life has been church, God.

When my issues began, I tuned my YouTube and radio to Christian music. I returned to a dedicated daily devotion and began writing more frequently. I also moved to a new church where I was more active, not just a seat filler. Not that I wasn’t a believer; I just was in a time of need, need of refilling.

This past year, I have started not just writing what God prompted me to but also sharing it with friends, family, and coworkers.

Then, my world almost ended. In July, I suffered a severe reaction to meds and stopped breathing. Luckily, my husband got me to the hospital in time for the doctors to save me. When I awoke and realized what had happened, I praised God.

When you are in Christ and Christ is in you, it’s easy to praise God in the valley. I heard Lauren Dagle's new song shortly after I got out of the hospital, and just like it says, “I don’t know who I’d be If I didn’t know you, I’d probably fall off the edge. I don’t know where I’d go if You ever let go, so keep me held in Your hands.” 

When I woke up, I knew I was in God’s hands. I can’t remember a time I haven’t been held. There have been times when I wasn’t following as closely as I should have, but I was the one who moved, not God.  He has always been by my side. And I truly don’t know who or where I’d be if I didn’t know God.